Monday, September 27, 2010

Scott worked a double shift and I’m waiting for him to come home.  He’s only eaten dinner once with us in a week and a half.  The girls saw him Saturday, but I had to work, and then he had to work Sunday.  This sucks.  Scott said he might be able to make dinner on Wednesday with us.  Dinner as a family is so so important to us.  It’s really my biggest ‘this must be done’ rule.  Nothing seems right in the house when we don’t eat dinner as a family at the table.  Scott is exhausted and I am beyond fatigued.  We’re both dragging ourselves around.

The no health insurance issue.  I am completely depressed and pissed about this whole situation.  Here’s what we can’t afford if we want to eat.  The insurance provided by the company Scott works for and the three major insurance companies that will cover my homebirth completely.  What we can afford is the crappy low cost state insurance that doesn’t cover homebirth.  We make too much to qualify for Medicaid, which oddly enough covers homebirth.  Scott has made so many phone calls and emails to his HR department about the cost of just enrolling the two of us, but no one is getting back to him.  Even an email to the vice president of the company has yielded us no help.  I’m one day away from calling HR on my own and letting loose.  This is absurd.  My husband works damn hard and we can’t get decent affordable insurance.  How fucked up of a country do we live in?!  It’s gotten to the point where our options for a homebirth are dwindling super fast.  If I have to have this baby in a hospital because that’s the only way to have this birth covered, there will be no end to my anger and resentment.  None.

I am fucking pissed.  And if you’re against universal health care, you suck.        


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Sunday, September 19, 2010

What we have in store for this week:  Snakes, Nomads, Math lessons 10 to 14, Grammer lessons 7 to 11, Bob Books, and Geography lessons 2 to 6.

Baby number three kicked my butt on Saturday.  I felt like a zombie all day.  I still went to work and came home and took over the watching the girls during the block party.  We all went to bed late because of the block party and then I woke up because of loud voices around 1:30am.  The next door neighbors were still partying.  Scott closed the windows and turned the fans on, but I could still hear them.  My head was pounding and I couldn't sleep even though I was desperately tired.  Finally, I went downstairs and gave them a piece of my mind.  I'm not one for confrontations, so I was nicer than I should have been.  At least they shut up.  What I don't get is why they insist on hanging out on the front stoop when they have access to the back yard!  No one in the houses surrounding them sleeps in the back rooms!  Scott said I should have called the police since they were smoking pot and it would have been hilarious to see them get busted, but I'm too nice.

All the cleaning I did on Friday was completely undone on Saturday.  It was a war zone when I got home.  Good grief.

The girls had a blast at the block party.  They spent all day outside.  There were games, crafts, face painting and a talent show.  Abby literally rode her bike in the street until it was too dark to see.  There was a raffle and the prizes were six baskets filled with toys.  Three for the girls and three for the boys.  Vera noticed early on in the day that there was a doll and a doll stroller in one of the baskets.  All day she asked to play with the stroller.  Scott kept telling her they were presents for a kid.  When I got home, Vera kept asking me to get her the stroller and baby doll.  Oy.  Then the raffle came late in the evening.  I think it was after 9pm.  Abby was asked to pick a winning ticket out of the bag, and whose ticket did she pull out?  Vera's.  It was fate.  Vera could care less about the other toys in the basket.  All she wanted was that damn stroller and doll.  Which was fine, because Abby was a bit jealous that Vera won a basket and Vera gave her all the rest of the stuff in it.

Lastly, it's Metro Minis Third Anniversary.  This whole week there's going to be raffles and tons of fun stuff to do.  Plus, some great shopping.  :)  And don't forget to admire the new set up!  The store looks wonderful!

Friday, September 17, 2010

Another Vera masterpiece.

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Wednesday, September 15, 2010

The Map Essential books finally arrived today.  Unfortunately it was only half my order.  I had ordered both first and second grade.  Second grade was for my neighbor.  Only first grade came.  The customer service at National Geographic sucks, at least the education customer service.  I have a feeling that if I was a teacher ordering mass amounts of text books I'd have gotten better treatment.  Still, sucky service.

I miss Scott.  The busy season started full force.  He's worked 30 hours in two days.  Here it is 5:45 and I have yet to hear from him about when he's coming home.  When Scott works insane hours the house gets trashed.  I don't know what it is.  I just can't keep up with the chores.

Today was another good day.  This baby is giving me a little break!  I'm tired as hell, but I can deal with tired.

I took the girls to the park today.  We haven't been in a while.  All the mothers were talking about school and such.  All their talk makes me SO happy we are not a part of that world.  My favorite comment about Abby from today, She seems so well rounded!  HA!  Also, I have said this before and I will say it again.  There's a special place in hell for parents who let their little ones cry alone, ESPECIALLY the mother who stuck her young baby in the stroller to cry herself to sleep while the mother had a conversation with a friend.  

Monday, September 13, 2010

Today is a good day for me.  I don’t feel like I was backed over by a truck.  :) 

The first week of first grade rocked.  Abby really likes the science and history.  It’s a lot of me reading aloud stories and her narrating back with some journal work thrown in.  I like The Story of the World Activity Book.  There’s some great ideas and ancient maps in there.  Abby’s rolling through math since it’s all review and she keeps complaining it’s too easy.  I said we should go over the easy stuff anyways.  It’s always good to review.  Another subject she’s enjoying is The First Language Lessons.  She’s memorizing her first poem, and both of us find it fun to practice trying to recite the poem from memory.  The poem is The Caterpillar by Christina G. Rossetti.  I’ve been timing how long it takes to get through everything, and it takes about an hour or so.  It really depends on how long the science and history stories take to read. 

I know I still have time, but I’m feeling the weight of trying to wean Vera.  She’s so little to me.  I half heartedly try to distract her if she asks to nurse during the day, and I have stopped offering.  The pain isn’t unbearable, but it’s there and I wonder if it will get more intense as this pregnancy progresses.  Night nursing depends on the night.  Some nights she nurses to sleep and then not again until morning, and other nights it seems like she nurses all night.  One step at a time.  One day at a time.  I really do not want to tandem nurse.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Vera's self portrait.

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Vera's sad person

I'm in awe of Vera's drawing ability.
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Sunday, September 5, 2010

Abby’s books came late Friday evening.  She is too excited to start.  I’m excited to start!  Doing and planning lessons will help keep me busy and my mind off this pregnancy.  I think Vera will get a lot out of the lessons too, especially the history and science.  I’m going to hold off on the writing program for a month until I feel confident that Abby is moving smoothly with reading.  She can read quite a bit, but something is still not quite clicking yet.  Her comprehension is through the roof though, but I’m sure that’s common with kids who are read to on a regular basis.  The big hits lately have been the Ramona books and Pippi Longstocking.  Abby eats up Pippi. 

Scott has Monday off, so this should be a nice weekend.  We’ll clean Sunday and have start lessons on Monday morning and relax in the afternoon.  Scott made this wonderfully warming eggplant dish the other night that totally made me feel good.  He got the recipe out of an old Vegetarian Times.  I think it was Lebanese eggplant with chickpeas.  I’m sure if you do a search on their website it should pop up.  Another night he made homemade mushroom ravioli with a pea sauce that came from Veggie Times too.  So so yummy. 

Everyday I’m amazed at how much Abby has matured and grown.  She’s a kid now.  A little kid, but her baby-ness is disappearing fast and sometimes I can’t even find her baby face.  Six years old!  Scott had the girls today since I was at work, and they were coming home and the train was taking forever.  He said Vera was getting restless and Abby was just going with the flow as usual, and I realized, she really does go with the flow the majority of the time now.  Abby will complain about stuff like any kid does, but that’s about it.  If I tell her there’s nothing I can do and whining and complaining won’t fix it, she stops.  Amazing!  She’s becoming self-sufficient.  I loved age five and I think six will be just as wonderful. 

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Abby had a great 6th birthday.  We went to the pool during the late morning with friends, and swam until we were dying of hunger.  We all walked to Eclipse for lunch.  The girls and I had just enough time to get home and shower before heading out to meet Scott at Target for school supplies.  Abby got a binder, folders and some other stuff we’ll need for first grade.  We also hit the dollar isle and found the cutest little 100 piece animal puzzles and Halloween window clings, which the girls have already stuck to the windows.  Abby wanted baked beans and hot dogs for her dinner, and so beans and franks it was.  Scott made the beans from scratch yesterday and they were amazing. 

Vera ended up taking a nap this afternoon, and she’s still awake helping Scott wash dishes.  Speaking of dishes, we have acquired a countertop dishwasher.  It rocks.  I love it.  How did we live before it?  Scott usually loads it up in the evening and I run it in the morning.  It is a bit loud and I’m afraid it will bother the girls if I run it at night.

Abby’s books should be here by Friday which gives me the weekend to plan our first week.  I might just do math, handwriting and reading on Monday.  Keep things simple for our first day in a new grade.  I want to ease into the lessons.  I ordered National Geographic’s Map Essentials which is a geography program.  I had to order it over the phone because their web site was not working.  I have yet to get a confirmation email or see the bill on the bank statement and the lady on the phone was annoying.  I need to follow up, but so far I’m not impressed with them.

Vera's drawing.

Vera draws the most interesting creatures. :)
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